Emotions Unleashed

I do not know,

Why it takes so much pain
To dwell upon my face, a smile
Why it takes so much courage
To keep all my senses docile

Why albeit my heart beating hard
I find myself a mannequin
Why amidst everyone so close
I often miss someone next of kin

Why each time I contrive a new path
It leads me back to the same dungeon
Why always is it crushed upon
My impending will to burgeon

Why I often paradox myself
While outwitting my sagacity
Why I laugh so blatant but fail
To regain the same vivacity

Why my silent cry doesn't reach those eyes
How could I be anymore genuine
I row myself on the sea of dilemma
Optimised to rediscover myself, sanguine

Dt: October, 2006